Just start.
Just write.
Just move.
If you’re anything like me, new, big things appear daunting. Appear unachievable. Starting something is one thing, but continuing is another. Diligence is key + often I feel I lack the drive. I love the excitement of something new. I even love starting it! But once I’m in it doubt + exhaustion quickly settle in.
For example… this website. I felt I was to start it. I couldn’t understand why, yet it felt like there was a tractor beam fixed upon me + that I must do it. So I did it. I felt the freshness of it + it was exciting. But once it all got set-up I suddenly was hit with thoughts of doubt. It felt heavy with phrases of “this is too big for you” + “you’re trying too hard to make something” along with “this is going to be too much work” + “I don’t have time for this in my life right now”.
So, here I am almost a month from my last post feeling that need to write but struggling to make words happen. Feeling scared of what I created + actively avoiding it. As I was talking to the Lord about it I felt as if He made it very simple, as it always is with Him, + I felt Him say… “Just Write”. Sometimes it really annoys me that it is that simple, but then when I step into it, it is actually so relieving to know it is that simple. Rest is simple. Leaning is simple. I don’t have to over complicate things. But I’m very good at it + so used to it. I feel like the Lord is helping me create new neuro-pathways in my brain of rest, of leaning. Where it’s not about what I can force to happen, but what I can learn + allow my Father to lead me. He is so good.
So as I end this, not too sure if this makes sense, but I don’t really care I suppose. Thought processing is a messy deal + letting them flow clears out the webs. So in conclusion, I must write just to get the thoughts out + to see what they form. I can’t be afraid of them anymore.
So this is me inadvertently encouraging you while I remind me to just write. Get the words out + just start.